Friday, February 23, 2018

TICK TOCK



I can't breathe.
I can't eat.
I can't think.
Im drowning in my own tears.
My heart keeps stopping.
Nobody warned me.
Nobody prepared me.
Im stuck.
Im lost.
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I don't know tomorrow.
I don't even know the next hr.
I know nothing.
I'm still lost.
I'm bleeding.
I'm on life support.
Literally.

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The promises, now empty.
They were sweet,yes. Sweet nothings.
Forever? Hahaha. Yes. Forever in debt to promises not kept.

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What doesn't kill you....moulds you.
Promises not kept.....build walls.
I don't know what to do but I'm alive and that gives me hope.
Hope that tomorrow will be better.
Hope that tomorrow I'll get a promise that'll be kept.
Hope that tomorrow will bring healing.

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It will be well.
It has to be.
There's no other way.
The Ashes.
The tears.
The broken pieces.
The long nights.
The bleak days.

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All will be accounted for.
Tick Tock.




Friday, February 2, 2018

WATU NA VIATU

 In swahili there's a saying that says 'kuna watu na viatu'. Direct translation is 'there are people and there are shoes'. As in; there are people and then there are people that don't actually behave as per the norm of the expected civilised human.

People that are selfish. Hypocritical. Negative zero common human courtesy (that isn't so common lately). Professional/pathological liars. Thrive off on negative energy and senseless drama. Low self-esteem. Always miserable. I could go on but I wouldn't want to bore you.
I just recently realised that particular type of human beings are the most toxic, the least progressive in any department of their lives and the most LONELY individuals! I'm I sympathising with this particular species? Definitely NOT.  I PITY them. They're so MISERABLE and TOXIC that they're allergic to good things. They're allergic to build or be near good vibes, positive energy, progressive milestones or even have good relationships with the people in their lives.

Then I also realised the truth literally KILLS them! Like they don't like the truth especially if it's positive in any way,type,shape or form. They're happier to fabricate positive truth with negative. They just gotta taint it. Its incredible! Like I personally believe that's a gift. Then they work overtime in tearing people's self-esteem to bring them down to add to their numbers in 'misery ville'. We all know or have heard of the popular saying that goes...'misery loves company'.

So I'm currently at the conclusion that....we all get discouraged at some point. We all get betrayed. We all get abandoned by the people we'd take a bullet for when we need their help the most. Even by family! We all get alienated for one stupid reason or another. We all get humiliated and insulted at some point. And its ok. I mean l know life isn't perfect. I know human beings are hardwired to be really shady and even cruel. Nobody asks to be treated that way even by their enemies.

No matter how terribly you're treated it's NOT your fault. You have to understand that. Wether you made a mistake or not. (Y'all busy rolling your eyes now I know. Lol). We human beings are at the top of the food chain but we don't even treat trees right! We don't treat the soil that grows our food right! Food that we NEED as much as we need oxygen!! Thus treating each other has deteriorated inexplicably. So whoever you wrong or didn't wrong has the choice to come at with both guns blazing or walk away and let karma have a go at you. Coz that b***h doesn't miss! She knows everyone's address; even if you're homeless.

If I'm sounding all high and mighty. Forgive me. Im furthest from it. I lash out like anyone. But I'm terrible at holding grudges. Grudges are exhausting. They're heavy. And I'm too lazy to keep carrying them. Im just sharing what I've recently realised. Toxic people have a foundation for their behaviour and they built on it instead of breaking free. Misery loves company that's why miserable people will flog you with their experience in that dept.
So as they attack you or lash out.....ask yourself.....'how were they raised?'......'how were they socially as kids?'......'who hurt them?!' There has to be a story behind the negativity, the toxicity, the misery, the low self-esteem, the LIES. There's got to be a story as to why they work extra hard to spread and pour out all that poisonous energy into all their relationships. At work,at home, in their social interactions and some even to their kids.
And sometimes I have ask myself how much do they get paid?! Do they get richer?! Or they simply add the numbers of the people who'd gladly sprint away from them?!


Yours truly:

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